06 ožujak 2004

Najdražem...

"Because You Loved Me"

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

...and because you've never stopped, never even for a moment and still loving me...more and more each day...
...once we said - Forever as One...

Hvala ti ljubavi što si cijelo vrijeme bio uz mene...i dao mi snage da izdržim...
Bez tebe nebi bilo ovih 66 dana bez heptanona...
Volim te...tvoja 'deep'

01 ožujak 2004

Unfuckinbeliveable

Pa ovo je prestrašno...Kao da su se sve nevolje obrušile na mene. Nakon zadnjeg bloga, dižući se iz kreveta tresnula sam kolko sam duga i široka, pala na kuk, i još da bude veselije glavom tresnula u vrata. Malo sam bila u nesvijesti. Najdraži je odmah dotrčao, odnio me na krevet, a mene opet nesvjestica uhvatila. Kad me Najdraži osvijestio, ja ko tuka nemam pojma šta radim na tom krevetu u tom položaju, zašto me sve boli, baš ružan osjećaj...Onda sam malo odspavala i kad sam se probudila bilo mi je bolje, ali booolilo je ko sam vrag...I kao točka na i, po noći sam dobila lagani epi-napad...ma naprosto predivno..A zašto sam pala?! Jednostavno kad sam se digla nisam osjećala desnu nogu, nije onaj osjećaj kao kad utrne noga, nego jednostavno kao da je nema..i naravno očekujući da ću stat na 2 noge, stala sam na lijevu i izgubila ravnotežu...
Sad sam na štakama i jako sam pissed, jer nemrem niš sama. Te dragi daj mi kavu, daj mi soka, daj mi ovo, daj mi ono...katastrofa..inače mrzim biti ovisna o nekome, ali ovo je prešlo sve granice...No, nažalost, to još i nije najgora stvar koja mi se desila...
Danas sam, ne želeći prekidat Najdražeg u poslu, krenula na wc sama i to sa jednom štakom, jer me kuk manje bolio nego zadnjih dana i mislila sam si - ajd napokon će ove 'nesreće' proći i počet ću opet sve normalno radit...Ali ne. Vraćajući se iz wc-a štaka mi se odsklizala i opet sam tresnula ko krava...Unfuckinbeliveable....
I tako sad opet minimum 3-4 dana kreveta, štaka i mrcvarenja Najdražeg...Iskreno, dobit ću 'lagani' popizditis, jer ovo stvarno nije normalno što se meni dešava...
Jedino što me veseli zadnjih dana je, da sam smršavila 17 kila...Kako su me samo oni prokleti hepovi uprasili, zajedno sa strogim mirovanjem zbog hepatitisa...
I tako, sve vas lijepo pozdravlja strgana deep i pazite kako hodate ;)))